Saturday, September 18, 2010

Friday 56: The Summer of the Great-Grandmother

From Storytime with Tonja and Friends

Rules:

* Grab the book nearest you. Right now.
* Turn to page 56.
* Find the fifth sentence.
* Post that sentence (plus one or two others if you like) along with these instructions on your blog or (if you do not have your own blog) in the comments section of this blog.
*Post a link along with your post back to this blog.
* Don't dig for your favorite book, the coolest, the most intellectual. Use the CLOSEST.


It was not just a bad headache; it was a cerebral hemorrhage, and Liz was dead before morning.  Liz died on the twenty-sixth of November.  The funeral was on the twenty-ninth:  my birthday. 
~The Summer of the Great-Grandmother by Madeleine L'Engle

I had this book sitting by the computer waiting to be reviewed -- with lots of little strips of paper sticking out where I found phrases or paragraphs I especially liked.  It's a work of non-fiction about the summer L'Engle's mother died.

My world is not the world of L'Engle's family -- children eating dinner separately, trips to the Continent, summer houses, hanging out with the Empress of France or General Custer, owning a house with a marble privy designed by Thomas Jefferson -- but nonetheless I can identify with some of her thoughts and experiences. 

L'Engle came to my college when I was a student there.  I attended her lecture, but remember very little -- mostly an image of a scarf -- so I guess it was winter -- but I don't know if it was her scarf, mine, or my friend Steve's.  I've read more of her writing in my last 15 years than I did in my first 20 and wish I had the opportunity to hear that lecture all over again -- I think it would mean something different to me now.

Some more snippets I wanted to share...

I realize, with a pang, how privileged we are to be able to keep my mother with us.  This is how it should be, but what would I do if we lived in a tiny home and did not have the girls and Clara to help?   . . .  And even though we have room, and the girls to help us, there are still those who think that my mother should be put away.  Put away.  Everything in me revolts at the idea.  But my belief that we are supposed to share all of life with each other, dying and decay as well as feasting and fun, is being put to the test. (p 28)

. . . I do not think that a house can be a happy house if no one has cried in it, if no one has died in it.  If this seems contradictory, I can't help it.  I rebel against death, yet I know that it is how I respond to death's inevitability that is going to make me less or more fully alive. (p 23-9)

I'm much more use to family and friends when I'm not physically and spiritually depleted than when I spend my energies as though they were unlimited.  They are not. (p 46-7)

The mother of my childhood and adolescence and very young womanhood existed for me solely as mother, and I suppose it is inescapable that for a long time we know our parents only as parents, that their separate identity as full persons in their own right unfolds only gradually, if at all. (p 88)

If I have to conform to provable literalism I not only rebel, I propose immediate revolution.  How do I make more than a fumbling attempt to explain that faith is not legislated, that it is not a small box which works twenty-four hours a day?  If I "believe"for two minutes once every month or so, I'm doing well. (p 142)

I prayed very badly in church yesterday.  I often pray badly when I try to say my prayers at home.  But if I stop going to church, no matter how mad church makes me, if I stop praying at home, no matter how futile it sometimes seems, then "real" prayer is never going to come.  (p 144)



 

Friday, September 17, 2010

The Simple Woman's Daybook -- September 20, 2010

Hosted by Peggy @ The Simple Woman's Daybook -- http://thesimplewomansdaybook.blogspot.com/2010/09/fresh-september-daybook-pagewhat-are.html

FOR TODAY

Outside my window... another very warm day -- nobody has told Colorado that it's fall.

I am thinking... that one should strive to remember the compassion one has received more often than the malice.

I am thankful for... a shower and clean clothes.

From the learning rooms... lots and lots of financial figuring out.

From the kitchen...  zippy ground beef & brown rice, ice tea, smoothies, and roasted beets.

I am wearing... a lavender tank top with a grey cotton skirt (that I'm pretty sure is a maternity skirt) -- both hand-me-downs.

I am creating...  a game plan.  Yes, still.

I am going... to the library today. 

I am reading... a bit more slowly these days.

I am hoping... for understanding.

I am hearing... footfalls from tiny feet, Beth talking on the phone to her mom, and a cover of Beat It by Pomplamoose (on Stereomood's cleaning playlist.

Around the house... clean laundry and sheets.

One of my favorite things... friends who stand by you.

A few plans for the rest of the week:  meet with my pastor, have book club (we read Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins), celebrate my daughter's half-birthday, and continue to figure out next steps

Here is picture for thought I am sharing...

This picture is from The Extent of Silence's Etsy shop.  She has some amazing drawings and you all should go check her out!

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Something my mom found and sent to me

The Direction Of Happiness 

Leaving A Relationship
 
One of the hardest decisions we ever make in life is leaving a long-term relationship that just isn’t working. When attempts at repairing and working out issues aren’t working, it may be time to examine moving on. We are emotional creatures, and when our heartstrings are tied to those of another, separating from that person can feel like an act of courage. It is not something most of us will take lightly, and many of us will struggle with our desire to stay in a relationship that is unfulfilling simply in order to avoid that pain. We may question whether the happiness we seek even exists, and we may wonder if we might be wiser to simply settle where we are, making the best of what we have. 


On the one hand, we almost relish the idea that true happiness is not out there so that we can avoid the pain of change. On the other hand, we feel within ourselves a yearning to fulfill our desire for relationships that are vital and healing. Ultimately, most of us will follow this call, because deep within ourselves we know that we deserve to be happy. We all deserve to be happy, no matter where we find ourselves in this moment, and we are all justified in moving, like plants toward the light, in the direction that leads to our greatest fulfillment. First, though, we may need to summon the courage to move on from the relationship that appears to be holding us back.



 

Taking the first steps will be hard, but the happiness we find when we have freed ourselves from a situation that is draining our energy will outshine any hardship we undergo to get there. Keeping our eyes trained on the horizon, we begin the work of disentangling ourselves from the relationship that no longer fits. Every step brings us closer to a relationship that will work, and the freedom we need to find the happiness we deserve.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

W.W.W. Wednesdays -- September 15, 2010

To play along, just answer the following three (3) questions…

* What are you currently reading?
* What did you recently finish reading?
* What do you think you’ll read next?



Currently reading:
The Sable QueanImage via Wikipedia
  • The Sable Quean by Brian Jacques 
  • The Owl and Moon Cafe by Jo-Ann Mapson 

Recently finished:







  • Click: The Magic of Instant Connections by Ori Brafman and Rom Brafman
  • Party by Tom Leveen 
  • World Made by Hand by James Howard Kunstler  
  • Frugal Living for Dummies by Deborah Taylor-Hough 
  • The Witch of Hebron by James Howard Kunstler 
  • Enchanted Glass by Diana Wynne Jones

Up next: 


  • The Summer of the Great-grandmother by Madeleine L'Engle

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Teaser Tuesday -- World Made by Hand & The Witch of Hebron by James Howard Kunstler

I first heard James Howard Kunstler's name when someone sent me a link to his TED video several years ago.  World by Hand & The Witch of Hebron are the first two novels in what may end up being a four book series and the first books I've read by Kunstler. 


Teaser Tuesdays is a weekly bookish meme, hosted by MizB of Should Be Reading. Anyone can play along! Just do the following:
  • Grab your current read
  • Open to a random page
  • Share two (2) “teaser” sentences from somewhere on that page
  • BE CAREFUL NOT TO INCLUDE SPOILERS! (make sure that what you share doesn’t give too much away! You don’t want to ruin the book for others!)
  • Share the title & author, too, so that other TT participants can add the book to their TBR Lists if they like your teasers!

From World Made by Hand:

"You hear the one about the farmer was milking and a fly went in one of the cow's ear 'n out th' udder?"  was a typical Minorism, as the other men called his constant banter.  Joseph and Elam carried rifles, and Seth wore a sword, a saber, some kind of museum piece he had come across in their journeys.   (p.124)


From The Witch of Hebron:

The doctor knocked back what was left in his glass and gave the dog a long look.  "My boy loved that dog very much and I did, too." (p. 22)

Click here for what I thought was an interesting interview with the author.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Monday morning

wintersignImage by Deepa.praveen via Flickr
Start of a new week.  Lots of things to figure out, think about, and do.  Lots of love to give myself and others.  Want to appreciate the beautiful Colorado weather and views.  Maybe actually do some praying.  Some writing.  Some laughing and some crying.  Some being strong and some accepting help from others. See the doctor, see if she thinks it's time to start the settlement.  Listen to my daughter.  Write a book review.  Sit outside in the cool evening air at least once. 

Be thankful and thoughtful.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Twenty-five Followers -- Time to check in!

Hello all loyal or occasional blog readers!  I've decided that every time I gain an additional 25 followers, I'll have a little check-in post.  I know there are some followers who I've not met and I know there are some readers who are not followers.  I'd love to hear who is out there.  If you'd like, comment on this post and tell us as much as you'd like -- who you are, how you learned about my blog, if you are new or have been around since the (admittedly not that long ago) beginning -- feel free to shamelessly promote your own blog as well.  :)
HeavenImage by Juan.... via Flickr